mhmm

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MP5j_Q9CZ3w
that song describes how i feel at the moment, sort of, and i love it :)

i had such a nice day with porygon and joshy yesterday, although me and porygon were left alone in joshy's bedroom when he had a bath for nearly two hours D: oh well, any time i spend with porygon is lovelyyyy <3 i'm not going to see him properly now until new years :(

i love how i was happy for you when you got a boyfriend, but then as soon as i found someone who makes me genuinely happy, you 'don't like him' and you're not happy for me. you haven't met him though have you?

i'm wearing her bracelet today, and 'romeo and juliet - the killers' is playing, and all i wanted to do was tell my two best friends about how happy i was with things. i miss you, and the way we used to be. i'm sorry i ruined everything by saying stupid things. i've cried so much again today, i almost feel like you have forgotten me. and i don't know what i can do to make things better again, if i can even do that. even though i don't show it, i care about you two so much, SOSOSO much. i hate myself for doing the same thing with you two that i've done with previous friendships :(

on a better note, the snow is melting! and have a happy christmas! :)
latersssss