oh look at marky, he's so beautiful ;) this amused me when i edited this, the resemblance is uncanny, don't you think? ahahaha <3everything is going to shit at the moment, and its christmas season and i feel so miserable. it's just not cool. i'm going to sound like a typical teenage girl, but i'm so sick of being single. seriously. but when things come up, and they're not exactly what i want, i act like a complete dick about it. also, i'd like to be happy. i'd like to have some money too please.
and also, i am happy for you, but i'm sick of you being so amazing in every single way, and when you stand next to me, i feel like i'm not important anymore. this is why i didn't want the two friend groups to blend, seperate friend groups are better so that i can get away from other people when i need it. now i can't get away, and feel even less important than ever because you're always there. and now you're bringing your friends in too, and this is going to annoy me. i love you so much though, honestly. ugh man, i'm sure you'll know how upset i'll be if the thing i want most with one person, happens with one of your friends. i'd rather have nothing, than watch him get with someone i know well. i'm just fed up of being the last one to be noticed, and always feeling left out. i really wish sometimes i didn't care so much, and i wish i could learn to say no.
NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS:
- find someone special maybe?
- learn to actually say no
- care less
- be less of a bitch
- be less naive about things
- actually revise and get into my desired sixth form
- have a good 16th birthday
- stop biting my nails when i get nervous (a.k.a - all the time)
- lose a little bit of weight to drop a dress size
- keep the wonderful friends i have right now.
well, that's a lot, maybe i'll stick to it. i will try.
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