not impressed

i'm in a down mood again. i still miss lolly, izzie and gracie incredible amounts, and if i'm honest, i don't think i'll be completely at ease and happy. it plays in the back of my mind still, it will have been a month on tuesday. and i am quite aware we haven't spoken since the 12th of december. i hate this. i just want things back how they were, when i'd see you every single weekend without fail, and i could phone you if i was upset, and i'd look forward to seeing you because things were the best with you. i hope that things will go back to that at some point in the future. izzie, lolly, i hope you read this. i need you, and i haven't ever depended on two people so much in my life. even if i'm not yours, you're both still my best friends, and i'm not the same without you.