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i'm feeling pretty down today. i dislike snow. i wanted to go to school today, instead i ended up waking up at 2pm and laying around on the sofa downstairs for the rest of the day. i miss a lot of people. and bits of my life, mainly this:

so i used to live in larne, county antrim, northern ireland. it was beautiful, but cold most of the time. i moved from stevenage to there when i was about 10 because my mum and dad wanted a change, and it would be nearer to my dad's family. i wish we hadn't of moved. i had to make new friends, and i had a strong english accent, completely different to their northern irish one. being there for four years, i had put on weight due to stress, getting me teased and picked on even more. but i lived through it, because my mum was there for me <3 i miss my cousins, olivia, daisy, christopher, heather and james. i liked the closeness of our family, and being back here in letchworth, i don't have that. we had a beautiful three-story victorian terrace house, and my mum and dad had spent so much money restoring it from ruins. the house was very near a large park, and then beyond that the promenade and sea. and then my mum split-up with my dad, and my world came crashing down. i can remember those two days, sitting on the landing while i heard my mum asking my dad about the divorce papers. getting into bed and crying myself to sleep. when i woke up the next morning i didn't get out of bed, my eyes were red raw and i still cried, i don't know how i could cry that much. and then my mum came to check if i was okay, and the crying started again, and my dad came in and he was crying. it was the worst thing i've probably experienced. and i bet you're reading this like 'why would she put this on her blog' well, it's because its important to me. and so, my mum, brother and i packed up our stuff, and moved to letchworth to live with my nan.

i thought things would never get better, and obviously they did, but it still makes me upset to think about what happened. i really hate when i get all melancholy like this. i don't like it at all. i'm going to go comfort eat again. hmm...