i was thinking about my birthday

i have no idea what i want to do! its less than a month away, and i don't want it to be shit :( hmmm.
i was also thinking about driving. on the tv there was a news report on children as young as 11 being given off-road driving lessons to prepare them for driving at 17. i can't wait until a years time, and i can finally legally get in a car and get driving lessons. i asked my mother about whether or not she'll take me somewhere before i'm 17 to practice driving off-road, and she said yes!
i miss lora, and my inability to not see many people. this half-term was one for me to catch up with some people i have known for years. i saw janna and my old childminder. and i really enjoyed seeing them. but i can't help but think it is my fault why i'm not close to people such as lora anymore. i spend all my time at school, and then when i'm not at school, i'm seeing brendan. and yeah, there's no problem with that, but i'm neglecting the people who i realise now who i need most ;( i need to make a bigger effort, i cannot throw 2/3 years away like that.

SO, someone suggest something for me to do for my birthday please!