righto.

i again haven't blogged in a while, so i'll start off with:
T-MINUS 12 DAYS AND COUNTING! (my birthday by the way)
so i've decided that me and nat will be going to london shopping the day after my birthday, and then i think hollie's piss up at kg's :) but it will be a good ol' birthday piss up for me too ;p
then the weekend after my birthday, i'm planning on going to thorpe park with various people, weather permitting of course!

anyway, i have to say i miss lora. a lot. and i don't always make the effort i should. although i've already blogged about this, it goes through my head often, so i need to express it.

i drank a lot this weekend, i spent much needed time with grover, and lele. oh and i coughed my guts up all the time. i went to stevenage, and met some people i haven't seen in 9/10 months? they actually spoke to me, which made me think that there are actually some genuine people out in the world :) i need to think about things.

sixth form. yes. so i'm actually quite excited! i handed in my application form last friday, and i have chosen psychology, sociology, applied science and philosiphy & ethics. and my reserve subject is art. quite pleased with it all! and i'm ready now to move up into further education, just need to get my gcse's out of the way. i'd like to say thank you to nat, for being there for me, and advising me in a way that i understood. i also love her <3

i need to see izzie soon. ciao x

i was thinking about my birthday

i have no idea what i want to do! its less than a month away, and i don't want it to be shit :( hmmm.
i was also thinking about driving. on the tv there was a news report on children as young as 11 being given off-road driving lessons to prepare them for driving at 17. i can't wait until a years time, and i can finally legally get in a car and get driving lessons. i asked my mother about whether or not she'll take me somewhere before i'm 17 to practice driving off-road, and she said yes!
i miss lora, and my inability to not see many people. this half-term was one for me to catch up with some people i have known for years. i saw janna and my old childminder. and i really enjoyed seeing them. but i can't help but think it is my fault why i'm not close to people such as lora anymore. i spend all my time at school, and then when i'm not at school, i'm seeing brendan. and yeah, there's no problem with that, but i'm neglecting the people who i realise now who i need most ;( i need to make a bigger effort, i cannot throw 2/3 years away like that.

SO, someone suggest something for me to do for my birthday please!

:)

i've had a really good weekend! nice lazy friday night, and i caught up on some well needed sleep. bedford yesterday was really good, bought brendan's valentines day presents, and a nice top for myself. i loved spending the whole day with joanna, i really enjoyed it!
valentines day today :D and for the first time ever i actually have someone to spend it with. i can't wait to give brendan his presents, and go out for dinner :) yayyy

so, i'm in a really good mood! :D
also, i loved my phonecall with lollie this morning!

ciao! x

ahhhhhhhhhhh

ryvita minis ryvita minis ryvita minis
lollie lollie lollie
jadine jadine jadine
brendan brendan brendan<3333333333
joanna joanna joanna
tea tea tea
smoke smoke smoke


<3 <3 <3 <3

you were my best friend.
you are my best friend.

i just wish you loved me as much as you seem to love all the other people you write about on your blog. i love you, and i know i've wronged you in the past, but it would be nice to post a blog about me. reading over that it sounds so pathetic, right? yeah. i hate being so jealous, and i don't understand why i am. maybe its because i'm so scared of losing you again? or maybe its because i want you all to myself. well i wouldn't want you all to myself, because that isn't fair on you. you're still two of the most important people in my life, after everything. i know i blog a lot, i just hope you read this. you mean so much to me. don't go away. i will make this perfect again, however long it takes. watch this space.

hacked by sexy jo;D

HASHEEELLLLLLL :D

physicsss is longgg
but i have HASHEEELLLL with meh;D
so its all good:D
whoever has a problem with ma Hazeyy can seriously "go home!!"
aha;D
uhh friday night:D i cant wait.night with the girlss(L)
we buying some munchies,alkie and we gonna watch a film:D

anyways..im gonna stop now as its time to goooo>.<

nice to chat;D

P.S you dont even know how happy Hashel made me by buying custard creams and cream soda for art :D
IM IN LOVE O.O

my heart is breaking

(u)

i'm not included in lp and clo's drawings in science :( they hate me

i like physics,

espescially when i have jo here to entertain me! :D
looking forward to this weekend, friday girly night at jo's, saturday bedford with jo :D
and then sunday valentines day with my baby and going out to dinner <3 yay

hopefully no dickheads put me in a foul mood yeah? ;D
lalala

i'm getting some SERIOUS withdrawal symptoms from lollie, izzie and marky. hopefully i see them in half-term.
oh, and i also have a serious case of C-B-A, so does jo ;)

laters

p.s, i don't give a shit what you think about me, dickhead. i know you're gonna read this, so :)

i feel so blank and emotionless

i don't know what to do, or what to say.
i'm not sure about anything, or anyone.
but what i am sure about is, that i do love my boyfriend, are the people that don't turn on me when i do the slightest thing wrong, or when an argument occurs.

i don't understand anything that's going on, or what i've done. i simply don't understand. i'm not purposely 'playing the innocent card' i actually don't know what i've done to deserve all this hate and abuse from people. i'm certainly not trying to blame anyone, because i have nothing to blame anyone for. i came home yesterday, exhausted from the stress of it all, and just slept, from 8pm in the evening. i was unaware of all the nastiness and arguments on facebook. and i have to say, that it is quite pathetic, and it's left me not upset, or any negative emotion, but wondering. wondering whether you will all stop being so immature and argumentative.

my mum said to me, "shows who your real friends are hazel, you need to pick your friends more carefully" and she's right. i love my mum, and how she's honest, and i have a good time when we're together. i'd like to think i can grow up to be like my mum, she makes me cry with laughter, and also cry from frustration. but i wouldn't have it any other way. my mum has been, and will be my rock, and i love her so much. and my mum is definately better than all of yours. ha!

i'm going to make a hot cup of tea, and sit down with my mum and the cat. good bye.

not. fair.

this weekend was weird

nothing weird necessarily happened, i just have a really weird feeling. i don't understand it. i really wanted to see people today, but circumstances stopped that, and it made me realise how people have jobs now, and don't go out as much anymore. i think i need to follow suit.

lalala, i want to see marky, and lollie, and izzie.
i want a biiiiig cup of tea, a good film/harry potter book, and a cigarette. oh yes.
OR to meet someone for a cigarette. either would do me fine.

gahhhh, i might go for a jog later.

i should be in the shower

instead of reading everyone else's blog posts!
brendan's tonight, with josh and conor, lets see how that goessss

lalala

i'm in a bad mood, and i don't know why. i guess it's probably school, and things with friends.

lets start off with...rafter, okay, rafter. so thing is with rafter, we're in a sort of arguement. i don't like it. it's not that i don't care about her, or not want to be friends, its just i don't like what's going on with her and josh. i wont go into detail, because its quite complicated. but i don't like this arguing at all, and i hope things sort themselves out, it's getting rather tiresome. hmm.

i got a phonecall today, while i was in school. it was my dad, and he left me a voicemail. i was NOT impressed at all. i have a picture of kae with a MASSIVE dildo in her mouth ahahaha, its so funny, but my dad thought it was me. so i phoned him up, and shouted, and i'm still annoyed that he seems to think i'm some sort of slag? eurgh. thanks dad. having second thoughts about going to watford in half term now.

also, another thing i wanted to talk about was charity shops. i never thought i'd say it, but i love them. i don't care what anyone says you know. you can find some really nice vintage things, for REALLY cheap. i was amazed. i went into a few shops the other day, and got the nicest red leather bag with a white cross on it, a huuuuuuuuge xl mens navy blue chunky knit jumper which comes to my knees, and a beautiful velvety floral pattern top, ALL FOR LESS THAN £4!!!! i need to go into charity shops more often.

i wish i could sing, or act, or write lyrics and not care what people think.

i'm gonna watch some glee on 4oD, cya! x

i don't blog much anymore

i'll update later :)